Sunday, February 26, 2006
the things we dream of...
the question of the century: what am i going to be when i grow up? i have NO idea. even after the 4 1/2 hours of the career talk i am still not able to decide on a career. nada. nil. zilch. NOTHING. i mean, yeah, i have ideas, but that's just it. they're just IDEAS. the people who gave the talks said that we should choose a career that would bring out the best in us and in the same time serve people. that we should be passionate about. hmm. i'm worried about college. i really really (times a thousand) need to get into UP. it offers really good education and it's not that expensive. i love my parents. that's why i don't want them worrying about money for my college tuition. i'm seriously thinking about medicine, with chemistry or med tech as my pre med course. as far back as i can remember (think kindergarten or prep age), i've always wanted to be a doctor. when i was still small, i remember that my cousin isa, my sister trina and i would always play doctor, with my sister as the nurse, my cousin as the patient and yours truly as the doctor. well, most of the time i think i was my cousin's obstetrician because she played the pregnant patient. i would "deliver" her "baby", which was either a teddy bear, her stuffed dog or Elmo, whichever toy would be on hand. you know those doctor's records where everything about the patient is recorded? i used to make records like those when i was younger too. i would think up a fictitious person, write down an illness and prescribe medicine. the illnesses i recorded were limited to "fever", "colds" and "cough" and the medicine limited to "tempra forte", "dimetapp", "solmux" or "bed rest". then, i would cut a bond paper into halves and make up a letterhead for myself. then i would sign my name at the bottom, with an M.D. at the end. if i would EVER become a doctor, i'd like to be a pediatrician because i like kids. i just hope i get over my fear of blood and cadavers in time for college. :)i considered chemical engineering a lot over these past few months. thing is, i'm not really sure i want to be an engineer. there's trigo and geom i think, plus chem. i'm not sure my brain would still be in one piece when i graduate. journalism. i've always loved writing, no matter how mediocre my essays or stories are. even if i have never finished writing a story, writing the story itself was always fun. but then again, journalism isn't all writing. there's also broadcasting, which i'm not that keen on taking up. business. starting my own restaurant. jescia told me, if wala na talaga akong maisip, magbukas na lang daw ako ng restaurant. magaling naman daw ako magluto e. well, i hope tumagal yung restaurant na yun. a psychologist. might not be a good idea. sometimes, i think i'm the one who needs a psych. my patients might end up being more troubled than they were before they consulted me. architect slash interior designer. building and designing houses is fun. i love doing it in the Sims. i don't think i would be too bad at it, but i don't think i would be really in it. you have to have really good taste in furniture, paint colors, an overall theme for the house, etc. flight attendant. glamorous, you get to go places, yet, also not a good idea. they need twenty-twenty vision, which i don't have. *sigh.* that's just too bad. ayy..so many wasted dreams...
written at 4:54 AM
