Friday, March 31, 2006
a day of lasts
*pls be warned. this entry may be a rerun of my 'saying good-bye' entry. the truth is sinking in [haha..ngayon lang]: tapos na ang third year!!!! i made it! i should give myself a medal of bravery or something. haha. yeahhhh...and nooooo at the same time. yeah because finally, we can get all the rest we can need. we can sleep the days away and just do nothing but eat, have fun, watch tv, and just be normal kids again. we didn't get much of chance to do that. we can finally stop worrying about the next project to be passed, or the next quiz to be studied. nooo because i'll be missing a lot of people, especially my classmates who became my close friends as well. this was the year i really enjoyed getting to know apa, ces, jill, tete, paula, charley, anna ig, krista and charisse and become closer with nicki, keishia and mia. i'll really be missing them next year, when we'll get scattered all over the fourth year sections. i got all sentimental today. when i was writing my name on my trigo paper, i thought, awww...last time and last day ko na 'tong isusulat yung Alexandra P. Lee, III Katarungan, CN 23 sa kahit ano [i was also singing don't cry for me argentina in my head while answering the questions because i watched connie and carla a few days ago. really bad case of LSS, i know]. i also thought that today would be the last time i might go up the stairs that koko, jescia and i use everyday. you know, the ones by the first year sections. today was also the last day i stepped into our classroom, which has been my home for the past nine months. waaahhh...and today was also the last time i yelled, classmates, paki-pass naman na yung comm ex envelopes nyo! last time na 'to! last time i'll collect anything for ms platon. i might be the english secretary again next year, but it would be for another teacher, not ms platon anymore. i'll really miss her next year. i've had the most fun in english classes [hu-muhlet discussions]. she's one of the best english teachers i've ever had. even if sometimes she makes us pass a comm ex the following day, we just can't seem to find a reason to get mad at her. speaking of teachers, i'll miss most of them next year, since there's like a 99.99% chance that they won't be my teachers again. i'll miss ms canivel, for the best world history discussions i've ever had, and for making me just adore world history. ms malayas for the really, really, deep and thought-provoking cl lessons [morality!] and the ganda points she so generously gives us to boost our recitation points. ms aniago, for her good-natured kapikunan and the songs she sings us with her amazingly beautiful voice [isunog mo ang aming bangkay...ikalat mo ang aming abo...that was for noli, a song koko simply adores and KEEPS ON SINGING].
i'll miss katarungan, too, no matter how many times we were yelled at, or scolded, or sermoned by our teachers. sure, we weren't exactly a model class [i don't think we've ever won a cleanest classroom award yet], but we've had the most fun as a class. i'll miss that the most. i just wish ms sabordo said something at least; a thank you or a good-bye would have sufficed. made me think she wasn't grateful for us, that for those nine months, we didn't do anything she could be thankful or grateful for. oh well..
fourth year na ako!!! good luck na lang sa akin next year. haha..physics at economics..
written at 6:53 PM
do ron day ron day
to celebrate the end of classes, koko, jescia, tintin and i went to eastwood. we had so much fun in the arcade. we car-raced, played air hockey, played the drums and the dance thing, then sang our hearts out for two hours in the karaoke room. napaos na ko sa kakakanta. nakakabaliw talaga. lalo na nung dinare kami ni koko nina jescia at tintin na kumanta nung "new girl in town" na hindi naman namin alam. since we didn't know the song, we just yelled into the mike, a tip we learned from ces. the lyrics were really weird, like do ron day ron day, oooohhhh...what that meant, we didn't care to find out. whew...and much to our surprise, we got a hundred! haha...
to finish the day [and to rest our really tired feet] we went to starbucks. no, i didn't order mocha frapp, since i already had my dose of caffeine for the week. tin and i shared on a vanilla creme instead. it tasted good, although we shouldn't have added the nutmeg and chocolate because it made it taste all funny, pepperish (according to jescia) and kinda cinammony.
man, i'm really tired...must hit the sack to get some rest...finally.
written at 6:51 PM
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
my greatest blessing....not
this is not the first time i've had a test or a quiz ruined because of this. i happen to be extremely careless when it comes to exams. sometimes, i miss a step in solving a problem or i forget to add a number to the formula, like what happened earlier. formula for the area of a triangle is 1/2 Bh. i forgot the 1/2. i know i'm stressing too much on things that don't need to be stressed on, but it's just so frustrating na alam mo yung isang bagay pero dahil sa carelessness mo, nakaligtaan mo. crippppppeeeeeeesssssss. chem results were also out today. looooowwwww. i hated my score. again, result of carelessness. why, oh why, do i never learn my lesson? you'd think that after carelessness has affected several of my exams, i'd learn by now, but nooo...don't know how that's going to affect my grade. i don't know what happened to me in chem this fourth quarter. it's like i just lost "it" in chem. i used to do okay, but now i don't know...nakagulo na ang lahat. five more tests to go...and then it's sheer, beautiful, deserved freedom.
written at 8:20 PM
Friday, March 24, 2006
ang mga pesteng kadenang sulat
getting chain letters really ticks me off, especially if i'm working [scratch that. i meant CRAMMING] on projects. i mean, it just pops out of nowhere, disturbs you, then threatens you. which idiot started sending out chain letters anyway? he probably had nothing better to do with his time, so he resorted to scaring poor, innocent people out of their wits instead. the nerve of people. are they that desperate for attention?i especially hate chain letters that say "send this within thirty seconds or you will have the worst life ever" or "send this in seven days or your mother will get hurt". what, is this some kind of ransom demand? for the love of God, can chain letters get any lamer than that? and speaking of God, it's really cruel that people send out chain letters saying "if you love God you will send this...". that is really toeing the line there. i mean, dragging the name of the Lord and then using it to make you guilty so you'd send the message? how sick can they get? sending that message does not mean that it will make God love you more. not sending it does not also mean that God will condemn you to burn in the fiery pits of hell. chain letters are not a test of faith. don't believe it, because if you do, you're just allowing yourself to get manipulated.
i think the reason why chain letters keep coming in is because people keep sending them. please, they are not REAL, okay? whatever you've heard about people getting into accidents or dying because they broke the chain of letters, then please know that those incidents are just COINCIDENCES. put a stop to chain letters because they are ANNOYING and extremely STUPID.
written at 3:45 AM
saying good-bye
can't believe this week is finally over. coffee-filled nights in front of the glaring screen of the computer are OVER. yeeessss. thank you God for helping me survive this week. today was so sad. we had to say good-bye to ms canivel and ms malayas because we wouldn't be seeing them on monday anymore. *sob* ms canivel is probably the best ap teacher i've ever had. her liveliness and enthusiasm makes us really want to study history. when she conducts discussions, it's like those historical events are actually happening inside the classroom. in fact, it's not just ms canivel and ms malayas i'll be missing. i'll miss most [emphasis on the most] of my third year teachers. it's sad to think that they won't be teaching me anymore. i kinda want to stay in third year, because this year has been really good for me. this is the year that i made friends with a lot of people i didn't really know then, and the year i gained the two best seatmates in the world, anna ig and charley. truth is i didn't really want to step into third year. i mean, who wouldn't be scared of all those threats of geom, trigo and chem? i also wasn't looking forward to being a member of katarungan. i didn't think i could replace gabay and ms casimiro that quickly. first few days of school, i wanted to transfer to kamalayan because people kept saying what a great adviser ms platon was and i also didn't like my classmates. i gradually learned to like being in katarungan. oh sure, we weren't really a model class, but the important thing is that we had become sort of like a family over the last months, and it's hard to say good-bye to that family that i had grown in. so ends another year.
written at 2:57 AM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
forty winks under the stars
we had the stargazing last friday and saturday. it was fun, but it really wore me out. well, seeing as i only slept for a few hours the previous night because of too many, ehem, assignments..
it was great. i got to see saturn! i saw its rings and i think, one of its moons. i also got to see the southern cross and the moon through the telescope. we also saw many constellations, like taurus, orion, ursa major, and even Polaris, the north star.
oh, and did you know that geometry followed us to the star gazing? the speaker, who's this oh-so-fabulous astronomer who practically knows every star and every constellation, pointed out three stars that if you measured their distances using your fingers, you would be able to form an equilateral triangle.
after dinner we had a really long lecture, which i'm sorry to say, i kinda slept through. it sucked that the first years who were sitting beside me could not keep their mouth shut. they kept going on and on and on about who knows what, even if koko shushed them for like ten times already. i mean, it's great if they were discussing the things the speaker was talking about, but no. needless to say, that ticked me off.
after we had a look at all the planets that were in the night sky, i went into the tent and planned to "rest my eyes" because they were itching from tiredness. my nap turned out to be a four-hour sleep, wherein i slept like a log and did not have any inkling at all as to what was happening anymore. i slept through the sunrise, wherein we were supposed to have a look at venus, and any shooting stars other fellow campers might have spotted.
i was the last, i think, to awake the following day. it was ms ngo and mrs torralba who woke me up. didn't take long to rouse me from my beauty sleep. so when i was finally awake, koko, jescia and i proceeded to pack up our tent, which by the way, we worked really hard in setting up the previous day, with the help of a few friends. we proclaimed it a miracle that the tent did not collapse and bury us under its sheets. anyway, it was really hard packing up the tent because it had become really dirty with grass and dew. we wondered how the tent could have fit in the teeny tiny box with the heavy metal poles and pegs before, but now couldn't. so we worked out that dilemma partially and proceeded home.
it was a great experience to just lie underneath the stars and appreciate them. there just aren't too many opportunities that allow us to bask in the beauty of the softly glowing stars in the inky black sky.
written at 5:31 AM
Friday, March 17, 2006
just like heaven
watched just like heaven. call me a sucker for romantic movies, but i really liked it. the storyline was creative and good. so kilig-inducing. haha. the movie was not really the basic love story, which was what made the story quite unique. it's about this workaholic doctor who meets an accident and ends up in a coma. while she's hovering between life and death, she enlists the help of a dejected landscape artist to aid her in rediscovering her life. they end up falling in love with each other along the way, and both discover that their love for each other was what saved them both. the rest, as they say, is history. i watched it twice, actually. watched it again after i watched it for the first time. it was really good. it practically reduced me to tears at the end of the movie. another embarrassing yet true fact: i get sentimental a LOT. hahaha. the truth is now out. gtg. have to do research paper.
written at 10:02 PM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
life's immeasurable injustices
life just has to have so many of these. each time i feel rage surging through my veins, i have to keep reminding myself that they happen for a reason. to balance all the good in the world, because without good, you can't have bad things, right?
it's just so unfair why people have to give up time or effort for somebody else who clearly enjoys taking advantage of that situation. like cleaning for example. i hate, no make that DETEST, cleaning our classroom. know why? first, you make, i don't know, about twenty trips to the far-off trash can just to throw away dirt that isn't even yours. why, oh why, can my classmates not even be considerate or sensitive, considering that they themselves clean one week once every seven weeks and have loathed doing the task because of the mounds and mounds of trash katarungan manages to produce by the end of every day? second, some people take advantage of other people's kindness or generosity by skipping out of cleaning. ehem. if you don't like cleaning, well, i have some news for you. we don't either.
i don't hate cleaning in general. actually, i would gladly wash plates or sweep the floor or dust furniture as long as i'm not forced to do it. just do NOT give me the task of cleaning a classroom which looks like Hurricane Katrina hit it at the end of every single day. kung anu-ano pa ang nakakalat. sangkaterbang papel ang nakakalat sa sahig, sangkatutak na Stay Fresh wrappers ang mawawalis mo na resulta ng pagbabatuhan ng mga tao ng dulce na iyon tuwing media awareness, at kung anu-ano pa. pambihira oo. wala na talagang respeto.
sabi ko na nung pasko na dapat talaga ang mga binigay ko sa mga kaklase ko e either lapis, ballpen, 1/4 sheet of paper, crosswise, lengthwise, one whole sheet, gunting, STAPLER, ruler o kaya glue stick. matatapos na ang taon, wala pa rin sila nito. hindi makakalipas ang araw na hindi sila hihingi, hihiram o hihingi at hindi na ibabalik ang mga nasabing kagamitan. at ako naman itong uto-uto, masyadong mapagbigay, kaya tuloy e naubusan na ako ng supply ng staple wire dahil sa pag-hingi nila ng pang-stapler ng formal theme, com ex, home reading report, sulating pormal, o kaya ang mga hw namin sa ap. ay nako. pero alam mo, ngayong sinasabi kong wala akong stapler o kaya ruler (kahit meron naman), paunti-unti na ang humihiram. phew.
okay. back to english. sorry, i usually switch to either tagalog or english when i get carried away. i'm just so sick and tired of injustices. even if you try and try to do something about them, usually it's out of your hands. it's just so maddening at times to be treated like that, and without even an "i'm sorry", or "thank you" at the end. cripes.
written at 1:31 AM
Friday, March 10, 2006
a cycle endless
She ambled listlessly from the article she was trying to finish to the book she was attempting valiantly to understand. She glanced at the clock that glowed green in the corner and sighed. The luminous hands of the clock read half past one. It was another sleepless night. She reached for the steaming mug of coffee beside her laptop, her third one that night.
She leaned back in her chair and rubbed her eyes, which were itching from the five-hour exposure it received from the computer screen. She closed her eyes, thought for a moment and leaned forward to type another meaningless sentence to her article. It was the last one she had to do for the paper, but she still had the book to look forward to.
It was another thirty minutes before she was able to print out the article and store it safely in her folder. She turned to the book that lay innocently on the table and picked it up. She turned to the page she marked and continued reading where she left off. It wasn’t long before the book slid from her limp hands and she fell asleep at the table.
The next thing she knew, sunlight was streaming through the blinds and she was being shaken awake. In school, she slept through the discussions and languidly answered questions. Finally, the torturous eight hours were over, but still, she ended up with the same amount of work she had the previous day.
When she arrived, she made herself another cup of coffee and went upstairs to start working again. Dinner summons were ignored and good-nights were never said, as she never did go to sleep. That night, as she drank from her fourth cup, she numbly pressed the keys to type in another sentence to yet another article.
She closed her eyes that night, thinking that it was a cycle endless and impossible to avoid.
written at 9:45 PM
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
brink of insanity
all third year students are currently on the brink of insanity. we have a ton of work to do and there's only around 12 days left to accomplish all that. phew. how are we going to manage all that? currently at a loss as to what i can still add to my media log. only 4 entries left then sayonara, media log. i don't ever have to do it again. [yes!] had another music class earlier. received another sermon for the, what is it now, 16th week in a row? apparently, it's proving to be very difficult for him to teach us, the POSTE people of III Katarungan. what a change from being called the beautiful ladies of III Katarungan by mrs dino. i mean, come on, enough of all that. yes, the topic itself is fine. we don't mind learning about renaissance and baroque music. the problem is his execution. if he could just present it in a way that we would be encouraged or motivated to learn, there might be a possibility that us POSTE people would have mustered enough strength to listen. i hate it when teachers berate students for being lazy or disinterested in lessons, kaya raw nagkakaganyan daw ang grades namin. please, cut us some slack. we read 2 chapters of noli per night, memorize formulas for the areas and volumes of spheres and cylinders for geom, values of quadrantal and special angles for trigo, read scenes from Hamlet for english, then memorize historic people and places for ap. minsan ang rason kung bakit kami inaantok sa klase kasi kulang ng tulog. kahit nga pagpasok nakakatamad na rin. lalo na nung nalaman naming ang ateneo natapos nung march 8. ang unfair din no. kami sagad na sagad talaga hanggang dulo ng marso. maaga pumasok, late matapos. ganyan ang sistema ng paaralan. sabi nga ni koko, mag-enrol na lang nga kami sa ateneo para maaga rin ang pahinga namin. kung pwede nga lang naman no?
written at 2:50 AM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
5:23 pmcurrently at koko's house. just finished cooking the churros for tomorrow's practicum. dead tired. imagine standing for three straight hours doing nothing but squeezing batter from a pastry bag (which wasn't even a real pastry bag, more like a plastic bag with a star tip attached to the end) and deep-frying it. koko and i were practically panting because the heat was really unbearable. koko's two little brothers were really cute. especially nathan, the youngest. ang kulit talaga. nangupit pa ng churros namin. tinakot ni koko, sabi niya bayaran daw niya dapat yun kasi malulugi kami. anti-nepotism pala si koko no. *sigh* really exhausted. hope our churros and mac and cheese do okay tomorrow.
written at 1:13 AM
